Världens längsta dag!
igår var jag ju ledig, gjord einte så mkt på dagen, låg mest i sängen o slappade. Sen på kvällen blev det utgång!
Spelning till och med.
Men först bar det av till Southampton med syrran, vi åkte hem till hennes kompis som bor där. Hos honom var det en till av deras kompisar, så vi 4 satt där ett tag och softade och drack färgglad alkoläsk. Runt 21 tiden beställde vi en taxi, det tog en evighet innan den kom dock, så vi var inte på "the joiners" fören typ 21.30. Precis när vi kliver ur taxin kliver Lee ut från krogen, tur för mig ;P För det innebar att medans alla andra fick betala inträde så slapp jag det eftersom jag stod ute med Lee ett tag och sedan gick in med honom ;D Så är det när man känner sångaren i bandet som ska spela.
Hursomhelst lyckades syrran f¨å mig lite dragen igen. Men inte på vin så jag mådde skitbra hela kvällen!
Lees band spelade nångång efter 22, dom var riktigt bra faktiskt! Min syrra var helt frälst. Det märktes om inte annat när hon så snällt skämmde ut mig.
Innan vi skulle gå så undrade min syrra varför jag inte introducerat henne för lee, jag svarade bara jaa undra varför. Senare så kom svaret, när hon tvångsintroducerade sig. eller ja inte ens det, utan bara tvångs pratade med honom. Jag stod nämligen och pratade med honom och då kommer hon mitt i samtalet fram och börjar babbla om hur bra dom var o att han ägde scenen men det visste han väl redan och så vidare. Hon kunde ha gått på honom lite lugnt..men nej då hetsigt som fasiken ska hon stå där o vifta med armarna o snacka...
Men jag tycker om henne ändå;)
Fick deras singel btw, så jag måste säga att jag är stolt ägare av en singel inte många andra äger ;) Så när dom sen blir skitkända så kan jag sälja den dyyyrt. Haha.
Eftersom det blev lite alkohol och väldigt sent igår så har dagen idag varit en plåga. Var tvungen att gå upp samma härliga tid som alltid och sen stå på jobbet hela dagen...mm trevligt. 10 minuter kändes som 3 timmar. Helt hemskt. Det som tog mig igenom dagen var att jag tänkte att när jag kommer hem då ska jag sova! Sen när jag äntligen kommer hem så säger dom glatt; Ne-e, du ska vara barnvakt! Så ja nu har jag vart barnvakt fram tills nu..så nu äääntligen ska jag lägga mig och däcka!
Och alla ni som skriver söta saker i era bloggar om mig, tack! Ni anar inte hur mycvket det värmer att veta att det inte bara är jag som saknar er så förskräckligt mycket så att det nästan gör ont, utan att ni saknar mig också!
Spelning till och med.
Men först bar det av till Southampton med syrran, vi åkte hem till hennes kompis som bor där. Hos honom var det en till av deras kompisar, så vi 4 satt där ett tag och softade och drack färgglad alkoläsk. Runt 21 tiden beställde vi en taxi, det tog en evighet innan den kom dock, så vi var inte på "the joiners" fören typ 21.30. Precis när vi kliver ur taxin kliver Lee ut från krogen, tur för mig ;P För det innebar att medans alla andra fick betala inträde så slapp jag det eftersom jag stod ute med Lee ett tag och sedan gick in med honom ;D Så är det när man känner sångaren i bandet som ska spela.
Hursomhelst lyckades syrran f¨å mig lite dragen igen. Men inte på vin så jag mådde skitbra hela kvällen!
Lees band spelade nångång efter 22, dom var riktigt bra faktiskt! Min syrra var helt frälst. Det märktes om inte annat när hon så snällt skämmde ut mig.
Innan vi skulle gå så undrade min syrra varför jag inte introducerat henne för lee, jag svarade bara jaa undra varför. Senare så kom svaret, när hon tvångsintroducerade sig. eller ja inte ens det, utan bara tvångs pratade med honom. Jag stod nämligen och pratade med honom och då kommer hon mitt i samtalet fram och börjar babbla om hur bra dom var o att han ägde scenen men det visste han väl redan och så vidare. Hon kunde ha gått på honom lite lugnt..men nej då hetsigt som fasiken ska hon stå där o vifta med armarna o snacka...
Men jag tycker om henne ändå;)
Fick deras singel btw, så jag måste säga att jag är stolt ägare av en singel inte många andra äger ;) Så när dom sen blir skitkända så kan jag sälja den dyyyrt. Haha.
Eftersom det blev lite alkohol och väldigt sent igår så har dagen idag varit en plåga. Var tvungen att gå upp samma härliga tid som alltid och sen stå på jobbet hela dagen...mm trevligt. 10 minuter kändes som 3 timmar. Helt hemskt. Det som tog mig igenom dagen var att jag tänkte att när jag kommer hem då ska jag sova! Sen när jag äntligen kommer hem så säger dom glatt; Ne-e, du ska vara barnvakt! Så ja nu har jag vart barnvakt fram tills nu..så nu äääntligen ska jag lägga mig och däcka!
Och alla ni som skriver söta saker i era bloggar om mig, tack! Ni anar inte hur mycvket det värmer att veta att det inte bara är jag som saknar er så förskräckligt mycket så att det nästan gör ont, utan att ni saknar mig också!
Mina fiina skor
Mina så kallade pirat skor. Det är favoriternas favorit!
Mina fina krogen skor, nej inga stövlar eller skit. Här kör vi dolly all the way!
Och sist men absolut inte minst, årets vintersko no1 !What do u think?
Svenska
Nu ni!!!!!
Im back!
Svenska!
Wohooo ska bli skönt med åäö igen, o nu kanske ni fattar nått. Jag menar det är illa nog när jag alltid mongostavar på svenska, men säkerligen ännu värre på engelska. Och sen alla mina fina slang som typ " u, r, cus," osv. Härligt härligt. Men det blir så när man smsar på engleska, man snappar snabbt upp hur saker och ting skrivs. Men jag har inte gått så långt som att skriva 2u, 2come, 4tonight och sånt iallallafall, jag säger to u, to come och for tonight. Duktigt Ina.
Hatar förövrigt att sms på engelska för vet ni hur lång tid det tar att skriva ett sketet sms, typ 5 min. På svenska skulle det gått på en halvsekund, men nu måste jag läsa igenom det 234557 ggr så att det verkligen låter ok och personen verkligen fattar vad jag menar.
Sen är det dyrt. Gjorde av med 5pund på 2 dagar det är över 50kr...bara för att jag ringde ett dumtsamtal till jens o ett till io, då var allt slut. Inser ni hur dyrt det är? Det var lixom kanske 5 min samnalagt...
Vart en seeeeg vecka. Eller ja veckan ahr ju precis börjat, men det känns som det är fredag eller nått. men nej så kul ska vi ju faktiskt inte ha det. Det är bara tisdag. eller jag officelt på klockan är det onsdag, tom här i england. Men det räknas inte.
Imorgon ska jag nog iallafall gå o kolla på Lee's spelning. Dom e bra faktiskt. Hoppas bara på att yvonne kan följa med annars blir jag ledsen på henne.
Förövrigt är jag ledig imorgon. Riktigt niceee. eller ja det är fel person som är hemma men det är ok, för mammsingen är här så feö person kan inte bitcha på mig!
Ska lägga upp alla bilder på sakern jag köpt, börjar med skoorna, för det är bara dom jag har foton på just nu!
Im back!
Svenska!
Wohooo ska bli skönt med åäö igen, o nu kanske ni fattar nått. Jag menar det är illa nog när jag alltid mongostavar på svenska, men säkerligen ännu värre på engelska. Och sen alla mina fina slang som typ " u, r, cus," osv. Härligt härligt. Men det blir så när man smsar på engleska, man snappar snabbt upp hur saker och ting skrivs. Men jag har inte gått så långt som att skriva 2u, 2come, 4tonight och sånt iallallafall, jag säger to u, to come och for tonight. Duktigt Ina.
Hatar förövrigt att sms på engelska för vet ni hur lång tid det tar att skriva ett sketet sms, typ 5 min. På svenska skulle det gått på en halvsekund, men nu måste jag läsa igenom det 234557 ggr så att det verkligen låter ok och personen verkligen fattar vad jag menar.
Sen är det dyrt. Gjorde av med 5pund på 2 dagar det är över 50kr...bara för att jag ringde ett dumtsamtal till jens o ett till io, då var allt slut. Inser ni hur dyrt det är? Det var lixom kanske 5 min samnalagt...
Vart en seeeeg vecka. Eller ja veckan ahr ju precis börjat, men det känns som det är fredag eller nått. men nej så kul ska vi ju faktiskt inte ha det. Det är bara tisdag. eller jag officelt på klockan är det onsdag, tom här i england. Men det räknas inte.
Imorgon ska jag nog iallafall gå o kolla på Lee's spelning. Dom e bra faktiskt. Hoppas bara på att yvonne kan följa med annars blir jag ledsen på henne.
Förövrigt är jag ledig imorgon. Riktigt niceee. eller ja det är fel person som är hemma men det är ok, för mammsingen är här så feö person kan inte bitcha på mig!
Ska lägga upp alla bilder på sakern jag köpt, börjar med skoorna, för det är bara dom jag har foton på just nu!
Hot Swedish Girl!
Im the hot swedish girl with a lovley accent!
That kind off things makes u smile.
Friday i looked at my phone at work, saw an text that said that the other work was boring and that that workplace didnt have a hot swedish girl by the till!
Yea, im a bit ego letting you all know
Anyways, mum come here yesterday. She saw my tattoo, she didnt freak. She thought it was a bit big thoug, but nicely done. So thanks Joakim, you did a great job, if even my mum likes it!
Got kinda drunk yesterday. Got drunk on wine. I know i cant drink wine, but i still drank more than half a bottle myself...
Then i felt really sick and then i fell a sleep :D
That kind off things makes u smile.
Friday i looked at my phone at work, saw an text that said that the other work was boring and that that workplace didnt have a hot swedish girl by the till!
Yea, im a bit ego letting you all know
Anyways, mum come here yesterday. She saw my tattoo, she didnt freak. She thought it was a bit big thoug, but nicely done. So thanks Joakim, you did a great job, if even my mum likes it!
Got kinda drunk yesterday. Got drunk on wine. I know i cant drink wine, but i still drank more than half a bottle myself...
Then i felt really sick and then i fell a sleep :D
The week
This week have been a bit better than the weekend...
Started out with monday, nothing speciall, work as usual. Texted Lee, he was on his way in to the studio to record, later he texted me again saying he just saw bono and the edge from U2. No i dint get jealous at all....not at aaaall......
He told me hi werent gonna keep his promise, as i thought, so didnt meet him tuesday.
Met him at work on wednesday thoug, that was really nice, like when his at work. Much funnier. Where supposed to meet him later but he cancelled again. that got kinda messy, but pretty much sorted now i think. I dont know. Some things just messes me up totaly!
On wednesday i going to see his gig though, whether he wants it or not! Even though he asked if i wanted to come, but he can change his mind about that 3000 times and i wont care, cus i wanna know how his band sounds.....
To day was my day off so i decided to go and do some retail therapy. Dint wanna think about everything thats going through my head.
J is out with his mates from work...and that messes me up as well. And mum is coming this weeken and she probably gonan freak about stuff....like my tattoo....
So yeah theres things i dont wanna think about.
Insted i spent way to much money....bought facialcreme, lip & cheek tint, a black shirt with red stars on it, a knited black and white dress, a really nice top for going out, cant explain ho it looks but its relly nice, and then a black skirt....it all costed me lovley £75...wich is like...900kr i think! Good job!
Then i ate at McDonalds as well! Even more of a good job actually! Ina is going strong! But i need it. I really do! I feel sorry for my self, been doing it all week. Still do. But now i feel sorry for my slef in my lovley new clothes, thats much better.
Wonder when J is coming home, what hes doing...no, i dont. Cus that will just wind me up.
Anyway, Fee dosnt like me too much i think. She was kinda mad yesterday, then i heard som stuff she said about me...
Yesterday she started with an angry " And u are not going to just stay out the back and do nothing!!" When i asked if she knw when lee was coming in...
I explained for her that i had been crying and lee was cheering me up, thats why i just stod out the back doing nothing else than talk to Lee. Then she went " yea, cus i know for a fact that there was no pre-packing left to do cus did them all before" But the thing was, i never tried to lie and say i did something, i said the truth from the beging, i didnt do anything else than talk to Lee. So what was thaht pre-packing stugg about? Anyway, i said we where even cus she stod out the back ith Marcus and his wife for like an hour doing nohing. Well, she said she actually did pre-pack carrots meanwhile. Yeah ight i say, maybe she did one bag....
But i dont care, she can stand there if she wants, just dont get mad at me if do the same...
And then theres next thing, Marcus ( my boss) started shouting att Fee because the pepperswhere done wrong, then she said all upset that it was me wh done the peppers, wich where true, but she said it in a pretty rude way, anyway, i dont care, it was me and Macus can sout at me for it if he wants to, but he dosent, he never do. So he just tells me nicelly how to do it next time. Fee was on her wa to burst. She was so mad. When marcus left, and Lee was on break me and Fee was talking and then we came in on the subject about Marcus shouting at her but not at me. I said that people never shout at me, they tink im going to be sad or something, they dont think i can take it anyway, and she sid, wel yes, but thas unfair, and i just laughed, cus i think its really funna that i can do anything ad get away with it. And she just went more crazy when i laughed, but why should i bother, i mean, its good for me and i dont care if its bad for her, its bad for Yvonne as well but she thinks it fun, she blames things at me and i blame things at her, we are just playing around...
Anyway, then Fee said that Lee is the same with me, and thats because she thinks he likes me. Ohno, if she only knew. All right he dosnt shout at me if i do anything wrong, but i have never heard him shout at fee either, but i have seen him be really nice to her eventhoug hes really cranky with me. He's always like that, if he's in a bad mood he ill take it out on me, and only me...so uhm, let us think, is Lee the same? Uhm.....uhm......NO?
I went to work on Yvonnes break today to be abel to tal with her and keep her company on her lunch. And whe we where talking there she told what Fee hade said more yesterday.....
Yvonne came in yesterday though it was her day off, she wnted to meet Lee, so when she came in to the store she saw me alone on the till with a really long que, so she said she where going to get me some help. When she went out the back and said that i needed help out there Lee asked Fee if she could go out and take the till, her answer was "why?!" Then she started sayng thath why should she when i never help her? But come on, I help every time i see she needs help by the till, wich isnt to often though. And someties im in the middle off something and then i dont help her untill im done, but nw she was just talking with lee and yvonne...
Ah well anyway, if she dosent like me thats fine. Aslong as it dosnt affect her at work, cus i dont wanna work with someon thats really rude all the time.
Im nice to her and hopefully she will be nice to me!
if not, i got both Lee and Yvonne on my side :)
2 weeks left!
Then Im coming home!!!
Miss u sooooo much guys!
Started out with monday, nothing speciall, work as usual. Texted Lee, he was on his way in to the studio to record, later he texted me again saying he just saw bono and the edge from U2. No i dint get jealous at all....not at aaaall......
He told me hi werent gonna keep his promise, as i thought, so didnt meet him tuesday.
Met him at work on wednesday thoug, that was really nice, like when his at work. Much funnier. Where supposed to meet him later but he cancelled again. that got kinda messy, but pretty much sorted now i think. I dont know. Some things just messes me up totaly!
On wednesday i going to see his gig though, whether he wants it or not! Even though he asked if i wanted to come, but he can change his mind about that 3000 times and i wont care, cus i wanna know how his band sounds.....
To day was my day off so i decided to go and do some retail therapy. Dint wanna think about everything thats going through my head.
J is out with his mates from work...and that messes me up as well. And mum is coming this weeken and she probably gonan freak about stuff....like my tattoo....
So yeah theres things i dont wanna think about.
Insted i spent way to much money....bought facialcreme, lip & cheek tint, a black shirt with red stars on it, a knited black and white dress, a really nice top for going out, cant explain ho it looks but its relly nice, and then a black skirt....it all costed me lovley £75...wich is like...900kr i think! Good job!
Then i ate at McDonalds as well! Even more of a good job actually! Ina is going strong! But i need it. I really do! I feel sorry for my self, been doing it all week. Still do. But now i feel sorry for my slef in my lovley new clothes, thats much better.
Wonder when J is coming home, what hes doing...no, i dont. Cus that will just wind me up.
Anyway, Fee dosnt like me too much i think. She was kinda mad yesterday, then i heard som stuff she said about me...
Yesterday she started with an angry " And u are not going to just stay out the back and do nothing!!" When i asked if she knw when lee was coming in...
I explained for her that i had been crying and lee was cheering me up, thats why i just stod out the back doing nothing else than talk to Lee. Then she went " yea, cus i know for a fact that there was no pre-packing left to do cus did them all before" But the thing was, i never tried to lie and say i did something, i said the truth from the beging, i didnt do anything else than talk to Lee. So what was thaht pre-packing stugg about? Anyway, i said we where even cus she stod out the back ith Marcus and his wife for like an hour doing nohing. Well, she said she actually did pre-pack carrots meanwhile. Yeah ight i say, maybe she did one bag....
But i dont care, she can stand there if she wants, just dont get mad at me if do the same...
And then theres next thing, Marcus ( my boss) started shouting att Fee because the pepperswhere done wrong, then she said all upset that it was me wh done the peppers, wich where true, but she said it in a pretty rude way, anyway, i dont care, it was me and Macus can sout at me for it if he wants to, but he dosent, he never do. So he just tells me nicelly how to do it next time. Fee was on her wa to burst. She was so mad. When marcus left, and Lee was on break me and Fee was talking and then we came in on the subject about Marcus shouting at her but not at me. I said that people never shout at me, they tink im going to be sad or something, they dont think i can take it anyway, and she sid, wel yes, but thas unfair, and i just laughed, cus i think its really funna that i can do anything ad get away with it. And she just went more crazy when i laughed, but why should i bother, i mean, its good for me and i dont care if its bad for her, its bad for Yvonne as well but she thinks it fun, she blames things at me and i blame things at her, we are just playing around...
Anyway, then Fee said that Lee is the same with me, and thats because she thinks he likes me. Ohno, if she only knew. All right he dosnt shout at me if i do anything wrong, but i have never heard him shout at fee either, but i have seen him be really nice to her eventhoug hes really cranky with me. He's always like that, if he's in a bad mood he ill take it out on me, and only me...so uhm, let us think, is Lee the same? Uhm.....uhm......NO?
I went to work on Yvonnes break today to be abel to tal with her and keep her company on her lunch. And whe we where talking there she told what Fee hade said more yesterday.....
Yvonne came in yesterday though it was her day off, she wnted to meet Lee, so when she came in to the store she saw me alone on the till with a really long que, so she said she where going to get me some help. When she went out the back and said that i needed help out there Lee asked Fee if she could go out and take the till, her answer was "why?!" Then she started sayng thath why should she when i never help her? But come on, I help every time i see she needs help by the till, wich isnt to often though. And someties im in the middle off something and then i dont help her untill im done, but nw she was just talking with lee and yvonne...
Ah well anyway, if she dosent like me thats fine. Aslong as it dosnt affect her at work, cus i dont wanna work with someon thats really rude all the time.
Im nice to her and hopefully she will be nice to me!
if not, i got both Lee and Yvonne on my side :)
2 weeks left!
Then Im coming home!!!
Miss u sooooo much guys!
Rubbish weekend!
Hiya!
Uhm not the best weekend ever...not at all actually
Worked all friday, then I came home, fell asleep, watched The others, went for a walk, went to bed.
Saturday was going to be nice, thought i would sleep until 11, but no, J's alarm klock went off around 9 and then i couldent sleep again. Started work at 12.30, had a pretty boring day, no one i knew. But ashely was nice...
Came home, fell aslepp. Woke up cus J where on his way down to watch a Lee Evans DVD, i said ill come down, i did maybe half an hour later. Stayd for like 15 minutes, ran up crying. Felt like an eternity before J came up. Finally we had a loong talk. Fell a sleep late. Go woken up at 11 this morning. My on Freakin day off this week. Im working tomorrow again! And they woke me up 11. Wa so mad i cud break in to pieces!
Mad all day. Made my sister mad at me. tried to get my sef together cus i dont have the time to argu with her. Got funnier thing to do!
Every thing just sucks right now. Feels like i made everyone mad at me. But they are all stupid! So am i. But they all blame me, its as much their fault as mine. But they are to proud to admit that i think. Blaming me is easier. And fine ill take it. But its just gonna make me more mad at them. And since im not like them, im not screaming and telling things, i keep them inside until i break and just hate them, its really bad fr them in the end. But they have them self to blame. As i said they are stupid!
I wish i was home right now, cus then i just cud have run to someon of u at home and slept at ypur place. And stay there for a little while until i can like those who live in this hous again. Until i calmed down.
But thats not an opption here. I have to sleep in my stupid little room, and wake up there nowing thath in a few hours i have to see all therir faces and jus wait for some one of them to say something that makes me mad or sad. Cus it will happend. It always does.
Just want to be some where else right now. Any place. Just not here.
please, could some one just take me way fromehere for a while? Pretty please?
Uhm not the best weekend ever...not at all actually
Worked all friday, then I came home, fell asleep, watched The others, went for a walk, went to bed.
Saturday was going to be nice, thought i would sleep until 11, but no, J's alarm klock went off around 9 and then i couldent sleep again. Started work at 12.30, had a pretty boring day, no one i knew. But ashely was nice...
Came home, fell aslepp. Woke up cus J where on his way down to watch a Lee Evans DVD, i said ill come down, i did maybe half an hour later. Stayd for like 15 minutes, ran up crying. Felt like an eternity before J came up. Finally we had a loong talk. Fell a sleep late. Go woken up at 11 this morning. My on Freakin day off this week. Im working tomorrow again! And they woke me up 11. Wa so mad i cud break in to pieces!
Mad all day. Made my sister mad at me. tried to get my sef together cus i dont have the time to argu with her. Got funnier thing to do!
Every thing just sucks right now. Feels like i made everyone mad at me. But they are all stupid! So am i. But they all blame me, its as much their fault as mine. But they are to proud to admit that i think. Blaming me is easier. And fine ill take it. But its just gonna make me more mad at them. And since im not like them, im not screaming and telling things, i keep them inside until i break and just hate them, its really bad fr them in the end. But they have them self to blame. As i said they are stupid!
I wish i was home right now, cus then i just cud have run to someon of u at home and slept at ypur place. And stay there for a little while until i can like those who live in this hous again. Until i calmed down.
But thats not an opption here. I have to sleep in my stupid little room, and wake up there nowing thath in a few hours i have to see all therir faces and jus wait for some one of them to say something that makes me mad or sad. Cus it will happend. It always does.
Just want to be some where else right now. Any place. Just not here.
please, could some one just take me way fromehere for a while? Pretty please?
Updates
I feel really good.
I voted.
I didnt think i would do it this year even though i really wanted to. But its just because Im to lazy...I hate when tings get complicated...even thoug it wasnt complicated to vote from england, but it felt like it from the start. But anyways now i done it, ill send it tomorrow!
Ill write in the lovley texting english so it will probably be wierd for you to read, but its so much easier, and as i just said im lazy.
Im working ALL week! Not a singel day off....except sunday of course, cus we are not open then. But 6 days this week. Im so nackerd! Really dont wanna work tomorrow, and even less on saturday. But noo noo we are short of staff so littel lovley me is doing my duty and are covering up. Today i dint work all day thoug, I started 12.30 so it was just 5 hours today, and thats how it sonna be on saturday as well. But not tomorrow, starting at bloody 7.3...uak. I dont want tooooo!!
Yesterday i was supposed to do something with Rockstar Lee, but he couldent cus he went for a gig today, so he had to much things to sort out before. Hope its going well for him. And the 27th im going on his gig in southampton. Im curios, wondering how they sound. Good hopefully!
Anyways, he promised me thaht we would do something on tuesday, but if i know my litle boss, he wont keep that promise...
Well ill se about thath next week.
Now im gonna babysit!
I voted.
I didnt think i would do it this year even though i really wanted to. But its just because Im to lazy...I hate when tings get complicated...even thoug it wasnt complicated to vote from england, but it felt like it from the start. But anyways now i done it, ill send it tomorrow!
Ill write in the lovley texting english so it will probably be wierd for you to read, but its so much easier, and as i just said im lazy.
Im working ALL week! Not a singel day off....except sunday of course, cus we are not open then. But 6 days this week. Im so nackerd! Really dont wanna work tomorrow, and even less on saturday. But noo noo we are short of staff so littel lovley me is doing my duty and are covering up. Today i dint work all day thoug, I started 12.30 so it was just 5 hours today, and thats how it sonna be on saturday as well. But not tomorrow, starting at bloody 7.3...uak. I dont want tooooo!!
Yesterday i was supposed to do something with Rockstar Lee, but he couldent cus he went for a gig today, so he had to much things to sort out before. Hope its going well for him. And the 27th im going on his gig in southampton. Im curios, wondering how they sound. Good hopefully!
Anyways, he promised me thaht we would do something on tuesday, but if i know my litle boss, he wont keep that promise...
Well ill se about thath next week.
Now im gonna babysit!
Miss you, then them
I realised something yesterday.
This whole thing sucks. Even though Im glad i did it!
But, you see, i miss you guys so much at home, but thats pretty OK cus i now Im gonna meet you soon. alright, sometimes i just wanna cry cus I miss you so much, but then i just have to think that its just 1 month left before i see you, and after that theres just like a 3 months before i see you again and then ill see you forever and ever cus then i live at home again. But then im probabaly gonna miss the guys over here, and how am I supposed to think about that to make me happy? Ill never move here agian, ill probably see them like 2 times a year, then just like one day at the time...And thahts if im lucky.
So its a situation thats alwas gonna make me miss someone. But im still happy i did it as i said, cus i guess is better to have met them and miss them than never have met them :)
This whole thing sucks. Even though Im glad i did it!
But, you see, i miss you guys so much at home, but thats pretty OK cus i now Im gonna meet you soon. alright, sometimes i just wanna cry cus I miss you so much, but then i just have to think that its just 1 month left before i see you, and after that theres just like a 3 months before i see you again and then ill see you forever and ever cus then i live at home again. But then im probabaly gonna miss the guys over here, and how am I supposed to think about that to make me happy? Ill never move here agian, ill probably see them like 2 times a year, then just like one day at the time...And thahts if im lucky.
So its a situation thats alwas gonna make me miss someone. But im still happy i did it as i said, cus i guess is better to have met them and miss them than never have met them :)
Stereophonics
Superman
"You don't know what it's been like
Meeting someone like you
You don't know what it's been like
Meeting someone like you"
Doorman
"'Cause all I wanna do
Is get closer to you
'Cause all I wanna do
Is make a mess out of you"
Devil
"So be my Devil Angel
Be my shooting star
Be my Devil Angel
Be my shooting star"
Dakota
"You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one"
It's all in my head
"You don't know what it's been like
Meeting someone like you
You don't know what it's been like
Meeting someone like you"
Doorman
"'Cause all I wanna do
Is get closer to you
'Cause all I wanna do
Is make a mess out of you"
Devil
"So be my Devil Angel
Be my shooting star
Be my Devil Angel
Be my shooting star"
Dakota
"You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one"
It's all in my head
end of the week
Babysitting today and tomorrow. Sis and her husband is in london...
Lee's last day yesterday, or his kind of last day with me at least... He said something about beeing at work one day a week or something! So i dont actualy know if yesterday ws his really really last day...hope not!
He and Yvonne is what makes work fun, and Yvonne is going to quit as well. That kind of sucks. Alot!
Yesterday was great though! Much better than thursday...
Thursday was the day Lee told me hi's leaving us at work. And i were allredy down and so on, and then he comes and tells me that! I couldn't help it, but the tears were burning behind my eyes. And I had to stand by the till for like an hour whit the tears just a sec from falling. Felt like it never was going to be my break! When it finally was, i called J and asked him to come down and meet me. Hi did. And i just stod there in his arms crying the whole break. When my break was over you could offcourse see thaht i hade been crying, my eyes were all swollen...
I went in to work, went in to the back, met lee on my way in, he asked the obligatory english question " ' you alright?" I looked at the floor and answered whit a stupidly happy voice " yes!" Then i quickly went to the place where i put my stuff. I felt how lee just stod there looking at my back, then he came and asked if i were sure i were alright, he got the same answer, then he told me that it looked like i've been crying. Told him thath, yes i had. Then he just did it worse, he stroke my arme and siad, no don't cry. Then i offcourse started to cry again so i jus said, No no its OK! And run away. I felt really stupid...
When i calmed down I went back in, and he offcourse did it agian and said he didn;t like to see me uppset. Yeah like that's gonna stop me from crying. But i held it in. And said it was alright nothin to worry about.
Then we just stod and talked for 30-45 min without doin nothin else, while poor fee stod at the till working her ass off. But i think i deserved it, usualy its me standing there by the till working my ass off. Anyways, Lee really cheered me up. Said loads of nice things and made me smile.
yeah and as i said before yesterday was great. I had in mind that it must do somethig good instead of bad on the last day, and so i did. We all did. Had so much fun, did everything i wante to. Usualy i just think of things i wanna say or do and then i never do it cus im a chiken, but not yesterda. I were excellent!
Now it feels a bit shity to go to mork on monday cus i know he wont be there....ever again.
But Yvonne is there on monday, so its still worth it! And i need to tell here alot off stuff thah she missed.
And i hope Lee dosent change his mind 'bout entertaining me next week, cus i would really love to come out from this house. But that's next weeks problem, right now i can be happy about yesterday.
Anyways, been really boring today, done nothin but watching the kids, and they been watching tv almost all day...boring.
jens is offcorse here and keeps me company but its not easy to do something fun when you have to children with you all the time...
But tonite we'r going to watch some movies and so on, just have to get the children to sleep. That will probably take forever though...
Better get starting on that bit right now...
I booked tickets home, so im home 10am 6th oct, or in Vasteras...then it will take me like 2 more hours before im actually home. Then im gonna hug you all so much so you cant breath!
Miss you to death!
Tears
and the tears come streaming down your face .....
When you write such things as you do on my comment thing, you make me cry, ok? I like to read your comments, but at the same time it makes me so sad, cus it reminds me of how wonderful you are, that I can't live without you!
I'll be home in about a month, I'm gonna cry m eyes out when I leave you again. I know I shouldent be thinking off tha problem yet, but I can imagien how hard it'sgoing to be. F F F F
And the stupid thoughts are spinnig in my head, I neeed to speak tpo someone, someon ewho don't judge me, and who at least tryes to understand me. i'm going nuts!
At the same time it;s now all is starting to get fun, i like work a lot, they are nice there. And Jens is going to work on monday, so he is getting friends as well. Yeapp....it's getting better. But, damn, i miss yopu guys!!!!
My writing is getting worse ;P But my speaking is getting better i think. At leats pepople here says i'm speaking verry good. And thats nice ;)
Don't miss me as much as I miss you...
When you write such things as you do on my comment thing, you make me cry, ok? I like to read your comments, but at the same time it makes me so sad, cus it reminds me of how wonderful you are, that I can't live without you!
I'll be home in about a month, I'm gonna cry m eyes out when I leave you again. I know I shouldent be thinking off tha problem yet, but I can imagien how hard it'sgoing to be. F F F F
And the stupid thoughts are spinnig in my head, I neeed to speak tpo someone, someon ewho don't judge me, and who at least tryes to understand me. i'm going nuts!
At the same time it;s now all is starting to get fun, i like work a lot, they are nice there. And Jens is going to work on monday, so he is getting friends as well. Yeapp....it's getting better. But, damn, i miss yopu guys!!!!
My writing is getting worse ;P But my speaking is getting better i think. At leats pepople here says i'm speaking verry good. And thats nice ;)
Don't miss me as much as I miss you...